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Heavy Heart

Mon, 15 Jun 2009 02:37:05 GMT

My heart is heavy... So burdened down and full of things going this way and that. I can't seem to gather them all in one place. I ask the Lord to help me make sense of my thoughts and to calm this worked up heart. Why must life sometimes be so difficult... I pray that tomorrow I feel more settled in my heart soon. For I can not seem to continue on this way...

Hhhhh... Not in My Plans, but in the Lord's Will:)

Fri, 13 Feb 2009 02:26:57 GMT

Hey y'all! Well I have this plan for my life... I thought it was a GREAT plan! But seems the Lord wants to tweek it.. Ugh. I hate for my plans to not work out! but the Lord knows!:)

So here's the run down... I was taking 17 credit hours and school... IT WAS CRAZY! Anatomy and Physiology I, English Comp I, Developmental Psych(which i HATE), and then Nursing 110- 17 hours!!!!!!!! GAH! It was actually 22 hours a week due to Nursing Clinicals. So I was stressed! And this last week and a half it really started to affect my grades. So after much prayer and counseling with my Parents and Nursing Instructor I withdrew from the Nursing Class. I am finishing all of my Pre-req's then starting in Nursing again in January:) So I feel soooooooooooooooooooo much better now:) It was crazy at first.. It felt like i was SUFFOCATING! NOT A GOOD FEELING! I didn't feel like I was learning all that I needed to learn, it felt all rushed and crammed in... I have peace about my decision and know that it will all work out!:) I even have my Summer and Fall Semesters mapped out:) YAY! So when I start back in the Nursing class, I can focus soley on the Nursing Class!:) YAY! And maybe quit my job! WOOOHOOO!!!!! That would be awesome:)

So... Tomorrow... We're having our Church Valentine's Banquet (Happy Singles Awareness Day to me! LOL!) The Banquet is tomorrow night and the Theme is "Dinner and a Movie!" We're showing "FIREPROOF". If you haven't seen it yet, RENT IT TOMORROW! No, BUY IT! ITS WONDERFUL!!!!!!:) You will love it!

Well, I had better get off of here now and finish up some online class assignments:) Laters Y'all!

Non-Stop Nursing Student:)

Sun, 25 Jan 2009 18:42:23 GMT

Hey Y'all! I know, I know... Its been FOREVER! Well as you can tell in my title, I'm in Nursing School finally:) I love it and am so terrified all at the same time! Its so overwhelming at times:) But the Lord is definitely helping me through:)

Y'all pray for me in this journey. Its been a tough couple of weeks... I had my first test on Friday and definitely did not do as well as I wanted.

Pray also for my job situation. I have a 17hour school load and am still working 3 1/2 days a week. Its getting to be quite a load. So I am praying that the Lord will bring me a few houses to clean as I go to school to give me a little more flexiblility.

Well thats all for now. I have a Psychology book I need to hit pretty hard:)

Love to all!

Tiffany- Nursing Student

Class of 2010!!!!

So Much to Do... So Little Time...

Mon, 18 Aug 2008 03:27:25 GMT

Hey y'all! Just a quickie post... Sorry its been so long... Been so busy...

Quick run down of my summer...

Family gone about a month... Lots of Work... Tragic Death of a Friend- Still hurting lots over this. Working on my grief. No time to blog! BLAH! Work, work, work.

New roof on house. Uncle did it. Family stayed for about 10 days. LOADS of fun! Missed a girls weekend trip like 3 times... Rescheduling AGAIN! GAH! Work, work, work... Annoyed greatly by work.

Visited family in Mississippi! SO FUN! :) Went Deep Sea Fishing on my Aunt Fredna's Yacht, the Never Say Never! CAUGHT FISH! YAY! Even baited my own pole.. with... SQUID AND LIL FISHIES! EW! But totally a great experience... No sleep... Drove all night to get home for church... Then Work Work Work... Which, btw, is HIGHLY overrated! LOL!

Got accepted into college- PreNursing. NO FINANCIAL AID! MAKE TOO MUCH MONEY! Apply for student loan... DON'T MAKE ENOUGHT MONEY! UGH! Decide God closed door for now... Serving and waiting on His Perfect Will. Hoping to start January if the Lord opens doors! WORKING STILL!

Went to Lansdale, PA for Majesty Music College 2008! ALONE! TOTALLY FUN! Plane was great! Food at airport... OUTRAGEOUS! But I was HUNGRY! :) No sleep... REALLY TIRED! Came home... GOOD FRIENDS FROM IOWA HERE! THE POOLES! YAY! LOADS OF FUN! The Pooles left that night :( So sad... Work, Work, Work... Still annoying...

Now.... Getting ready for Christmas Play! INSANE I KNOW! LOL! Beginning to give Voice and Piano Lessons... Seeking God's Will... WORK WORK WORK! Yes... STILLL GREATLY ANNOYING! BLAH!

:] Sleepy Smileys [:

Wed, 30 Jul 2008 02:03:46 GMT

Hey Y'all! I'm here! :) I've been sooooo busy here lately....

And haven't really had the heart to blog again... It still hurts...

But I'm trying to be back... I'll post soon and update you on all thats going on in my life... Love to all of my readers! MUAH! Y'all are the best!

Laters Y'all!

Forever in My Heart Dear Christa!

Wed, 02 Jul 2008 00:04:03 GMT

Dear Friends... I'm sorry its been a while... its been a hard few days...

I ask that you would pray for the Alexander and Baker familes as they are facing this hard time before them. My Dear friend Christa Baker Alexander was Murdered this past weekend. We all miss Christa dearly. She was expecting her first child... I know that Christa wouldn't want to come home now even if she could. I can so see her walking the streets of gold in heaven singing in that sweet sweet southern voice of hers, holding her dear sweet precious baby in her arms at last. She's waiting for us dear friends... She's preparing the Wedding Supper and saving a place for all of her dearest and closest friends... Be sure you have Christ as your Saviour. Its what Christa would want... To see people come to know Christ, even if it meant that we go through this tragedy... She would rejoice if just one person was either saved, or brought back home.... Take this time to examine yourself. I know its woke me up... I have had to take time to look at my heart and truly see myself for what I am... I have to say I am not very happy with what I have seen. I have drifted so far it seems, from the things that matter in my life... I realize... Someone has to take up the torch that Christa carried. Take it up and Keep Running On, bringing lives to Christ.... I challenge you... Rededicate yourself daily to take up the Torch of Our Dear Christa and Serve the Lord... Striving daily to become more like our Dear Saviour.....

I love you Christa! I miss you so much! We all do! You were such a great testimony to all of those around us... Your walk with our Saviour was evident in EVERYTHING that you did... You made such a huge impact in the lives of so many peaple. You will forever be in my heart dear sweet precious friend. My tears fall for the tragedy that befell you but my heart rests in the hope I have of seeing you again. I am going to try harder Christa to strive to set the example for others, that you my dear friend, set for me... Christa your are missed sorely... But I do not wish you back from where you are... I am coming... I will work until the time Our Saviour calls me homeward... I love you Christa... I miss you so much! You my dear sweet loving friend...are Forever In My Heart......

Summer Memories

Thu, 19 Jun 2008 15:12:00 GMT

Hey Y'all! I can't believe that Summer is here.... Its beautiful! I sat on our back deck the other night with my thoughts and I saw one of my favorite summer bugs...... FIREFLIES! I smiled to myself and though, "Yep! Summer is finally here!" I remember as a little girl coming to Tennessee to visit my grandparents and being outside with my cousins, catching fireflies and putting them in jars... They fascinated me.... I remember helping my Mama and my Mama Cash make good old fashioned Sun Tea. I loved going outside in my barefeet and padding across the warm grass... Picking all the dandelions there were! Making wishes on the ones that had already succumbed to the end of their short lived lives. Then I loved to go sit under the tree in the shade... The grass was so much cooler there.... I loved to sit and think about my life as a little girl. And then to think of getting married one day... Having my own family... I was such a dreamer... HA! I still am.... I love summer... I also remember going to the creek with my family... and the first cool touch of the sometimes icey water... Brrrr! But I soon got over that... I remember taking watermelon's with us and placing it in a shallow like pool part of the creek to keep the watermelon icey cold until we were ready to cut into it. Then i remember as we all got tired and it started turning dark we'd build a fire and make S'more's! What fun.... I want that for my family some day... To be able to take You and Me days and just have fun... To enjoy spending time with your family.... As we kids get older those days are far and few between for my family.... There was a rare day a while back that we were all at home, so we went shooting. LOL! I know... Crazy right??? But we had so much fun.. We target shot with the hand guns, then we shot clay pigeons... Needless to say my arms were so sore days after. It was fun though.... And we made plenty of memories. Ha! Like how my Dad pushed in his clip on his glock and went to fire and the clip fell out of the bottom of the gun! HAHA! Oh that was a classic Cash Family Moment. Memories... Summer Memories... Cherish them... Because sometimes its those Moments that keep you goin....

THE DRAMA- A DAY IN THE LIFE OF TIFFANY

Fri, 06 Jun 2008 23:04:34 GMT

Hey Y'all!

Soo..... Mom's out of town right??? So I help my Dad cleaning the daycare... No prob... Sunday Night, Monday Night and Tuesday... All is well :)... Tuesday we get home early... I take a shower. Climb into bed to watch some Gilmore Girls... Get all comfy... Then it happens...

"TIFFANY!!!!!!! HELP ME FIND THE WAWAWAW---"

I think to myself, "What's that????"

"Sir???? What do you need?" I say asking my Dad.

Dad frantically yells, "FIND ADAM'S WALLET!!!!!!!!"

"His wallet???" I ask, thinkin... He's finally lost it! LOL!

"Ok Dad, I don't know where it is," I say.

"HURRY TIFF! ADAM THINKS HE BROKE HIS ANKLE RUNNING!!!!!!!!!" Dad yells.

"WWWWWWHHHHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAATTTTTTTTTT?????????" I YELL!!!!!!!

I quickly FLY out of the bed grab a t-shirt and jean skirt to change out of my pajama pants.... Grab the nearest shoes... and frantically search for my purse and keys as i fly out of my bed room and down the stairs... I am sooooo outta breath by now...

"Wha... What... What. hhhhhapppened Dad?" I ask

Dad is frantically running around grabbing things, "He went running like he usually does and went to get over for a car and went down..."

OH NO! I groan inwardly thinking of the pain he must be in... We jump in the car and fly down our street and onto the next one... around the curve.... AND THERE HE IS! The poor guy... We get him in the car and speed away thanking the kid who stopped to help. To the ER we go.....

Get to the ER I rush and get a wheel chair. Wheel him in... And brilliantly say... "HE'S HURT!" Stupid me... Duh he's hurt, we're in a stinkin' ER! Gah! "We think he broke his ankle," I finally spit out... The guy asks us to sign in... Then directs us to the correct waiting room... Its now about 10 o'clock....

And we wait.....................................

11 o'clock..... And Wait................

11:14..... "Cash!" The Triage Nurse calls..... We go back they take his vitals and info.... And send us back out to the--- Du du dummmm... The Waiting Room! (With the creepy looking fish in the fish tank.)

We wait....................

12 o'clock..... Still waiting...........

Waiting...............

Waiting..............

GAH! I have to be at work at 8!!!!!!!!!!!

Dad takes me home.... The wait till almost 2 AM and finally are seen..... 6 o'clock rolls around.... They leave the hospital on crutches, with a fractured ankle...

THE DRAMA! I tell ya..... It finds me EVERYWHERE! Yup... Adam has a fractured ankle.... And pulled tendons, and a torn ligament... Poor guy....

Soooooooooo... After all this, and work and still helping Dad, and cleaning, and cooking and laundry... I call Mom lastnight...

"COME HOME!!!!!!!!!!" I scream! LOL! "I am exhausted!!!!! I don't wanna be you anymore... Come home... I wanna go back to being ME!"

Luckily.... She will arrive Saturday Night and my Mom Duty is officially OVER!

Thank GOD! :)

So yeah.... Thats my DRAMA! The joys... A Day in the Life!

Until Next Time...... Keep on Livin' the Drama!

Exhaustion....

Tue, 03 Jun 2008 02:22:18 GMT

Hey Y'all! So I am just sooo tired... Its been a tiring past week... Whew... Crazy... And Now I am at home... alone... out numbered by my Dad and brohter Adam.... GAH! They like to gang up on me! LOL! The joys... Can't wait for my mom to come home this weekend!

Well... thats really it for now... Just wanted to check in...

Until Next Time... Keep on Trying...

Just Some Simple, Good, Old Fashioned.... FUN!!

Sun, 01 Jun 2008 01:53:52 GMT

HEY Y'ALL!:) I hope this finds everyone having a simply WONDERFUL weekend! I know I have had a GREAT one! :D

Sooo.... Let me give you a lil update real quick like...

Last weekend I took my younger siblings, Bethany and Phillip, to SMITE Camp. :) I got to see soooooooo many of my dear friends I haven't seen in ages! And I also got to see my two cousins Megan and Brittany! We hadn't see each other in over a year and it had been even longer than that since the last time we got to sit down and visit! So needless to say there was tons of hugging, lots of laughing and story telling... And even more and more talking and catching up! It was great!

At SMITE I saw sooooo many of my friends i went to camp with and on some missions trips! I was able to see my dear dear special Friend Kayla and her husband Ben, who are missionaries to Jamaica. And for the first time I got to see Little Ethan McGuffey, Kayla and Ben's little boy! HE WAS ADORABLE! So precious! Came right to me and even smiled for me! I should've thought to take a picture... But i didn't... Aw Man... Should thought of that! So, Kayla and Ben if your reading this... Which i'm sure you will be eventually... I NEED PICTURES OF ETHAN! :) LOL! ASAP! I am also hoping to maybe go visit them in Jamaica soon... Just like old times maybe doing some Bible Clubs! Thats how we all got to know each other was a missions trip to Jamaica... Little did we know that 3 years later Kayla and Ben would get married! And now a total of 5 years later go back to Jamaica as Missionaries! Praise the Lord!

I was also able to spend the weekend with one of my bestest friends ever, Kimberly! We had loads of fun... It was just like in Highschool! :)

Well i came back on Monday night and was here for 3 days before i headed back down a lil further south... AGAIN! We were able to go back to watch my sister Bethany Graduate from the SMITE Camp training! :D YAY BETHANY! CONGRATS LIL SIS!

Well, Mom and I were able to leave early and have our own "Girls Road Trip!" It was total fun... AND TOTALLY HILARIOUS! LOL! We stayed again with our favorite GORDON FAMILY! :D It was loads of fun... And Friday Dad and Adam drove in...

Well Friday Night it was back down Memory Lane.... So very nice to see EVERYONE again! :) And we were able to spend some very fun time with my cousin Megan and her husband Eddie, and Brittany and her friend Oscar! It was sooo great!

Well Last night we all went our seperate ways... With Mama and the 2 younger siblings going to Mississippi to see family for a little while, then Dad and Adam and I headed back here!

Tonight I went to a VERY special 5 yr olds Birthday Party! :) Happy Birthday LOGAN! He's my man! WE had LOADS of fun! They decided to open his 2 SUPER SOAKER water guns, and have a water fight... So, I, being so very smart(aka-stupid), told them I'd help get them set up... And as soon as i filled the guns up... Guess who got hit??? ME!!!!!!!!! The one "TRYING" to help! GAH! LOL! But it was soooooo fun... Because I just cranked the water hose up and went after them! We had loads of fun!

Well thats the current update on my life...

Just Simple, Good, Old Fashioned... FUN!!!!!

Until Next time.... KEEP YOUR JOY! AND HAVE FUN!